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Feel Your Emotions

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November, over year ago, I first experienced Fibromyalgia. I had a confrontation with someone at Bible Study and I didn’t feel like I had a voice in the situation. I was angry and became depressed. Within the week, I had insomnia and pain up my spine and over my shoulders so bad that no one could touch me. It was not only hard to experience those physical pains, but one of my main Love Languages is touch which left me feeling lonely.

 

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I worked with a friend of mine to find the best essential oils for me to help heal the inflammation. Within a month, I was able to get the pain gone.

 

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Doing the Dressing Your Truth program began to teach me that I am lovable and created beautiful in my own type. I began to be excited to be me and tell others what I had learned.

 

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In the process, I had friends that were angry with me for doing so. I began to notice a pattern in these confrontations and I would feel the pain severely again. Some of it was that I would turn to my sugar addiction and my body is already out of balance with bad bacteria causing Leaky Gut. Part of it is that I would revert right back to “Somebody doesn’t like me, I’m not good enough” thinking. I realized after the last time, that I’d had enough of taking my anger out on me.

 

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I began to go to counseling to learn to deal with my anger in a healthy way. And here I’ve been learning to set boundaries in my relationships, to be more patient with myself, and to use my voice.

 

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One of the things that my counselor has been reiterating is that emotions don’t last very long. If we don’t allow ourselves to feel our emotions, it turns into suffering.

 

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I used to stop myself from crying because it wasn’t a “positive” emotion. I felt that it was incorrect to be angry or to cry. I would still be angry, I just wouldn’t express it. Pretending that the feeling wasn’t there didn’t make it go away. My anger would then last for a few days, then I would get depressed for a few days thinking that it was my fault that I was feeling angry and it was wrong. Then would find a way to move on.

 

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But this weekend, my husband and I went out to eat at a buffet. Going out to eat is hard for me because so many things can knock me back down again. I got a lot of meat and found a few veggies that were not covered in sauces. My husband sits down with carbs. I looked at his plate and said, “I miss that.” He said that a little bit would probably not hurt me, but in this healing stage, I need to stay away from it. I also know that I wouldn’t stop with a little bit because I fear I may never have it again and go overboard.

 

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And I began to cry. This time, I didn’t stop it. I cried because of grief over the loss of my favorite foods. I cried because it wasn’t fair. I cried because I caused this damage to my body. I cried because I don’t know how long it will take to heal.

 

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And after a couple minutes of crying over my food, it was over. I took a deep breath and felt great! I didn’t not mourn for the rest of the day. I did not mope about it for the next week. I wasn’t angry with myself, depressed about it, nor did I feel the Fibromyalgia pain. I’m so excited that I’m learning!!! I’m getting it!!! It’s one thing to know what is wrong with you, or have the answer of how to get better, but accomplishing that task is so rewarding!!

 

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I know that without my vitamins and supplements right now, I would still and have crashed. I know that diet changes and exercise are crucial and I don’t have it down, yet! I know that I need to be especially careful around hormone changes. I know that what works for me, may not work for everyone, but it doesn’t mean there aren’t answers for you. I know that addressing whatever caused the problem may not be the only way to heal. Because all parts of the body work together, one thing can affect all the other. By praying, hoping, being willing to seek and find answers, and paying attention to my body, I was able to see the connection for me. I am excited that I am practicing feeling my emotions, learning how to voice them, that it is okay to do so, and that I’m getting this part!!! I am healing!

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Magnesium Deficiency

I have been putting off writing this post for a long time. There is so much that a Magnesium deficiency covers, not to mention finding the right kind of Magnesium! It has been exhausting process for me, but WELL worth it! I would like to pass on this information to you.

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So, let me start there. You many be Magnesium deficient if you have these SYMPTOMS:

  • Constipation
  • High blood pressure (Hypertension)
  • Anxiety
  • Depression
  • Insomnia
  • Behavioral disturbances
  • Lethargy
  • Impaired memory/thinking
  • Seizures
  • Fatigue
  • Sleep disturbances
  • Pain
  • Muscle cramps
  • Chronic back pain
  • Headaches
  • Migraines
  • Muscular pain
  • Tendonitis
  • Anger
  • Aggression
  • ADHD
  • Brain fog
  • Tension
  • Anxiety disorders such as OCD

Then, let’s add on mutations. A connective tissue disorder such as Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome causes problems in holding Magnesium (and other salts) in your body. Dr. Heidi Collins talks about how many problems in EDS that are aided by adding Magnesium in one’s diet. Her paper is summarized by Dr. Diana Driscoll here. (both Dr. Driscoll and Dr. Collins have EDS)

Now, if you’ve established that you may have a Magnesium deficiency, try adding foods with Magnesium into your diet. Also cut out sugars, processed foods, starches, and gluten in your diet that are immediately decreasing your Magnesium (and other salt) levels. Personally, I do not even like salt and many foods that have Magnesium in them, so I poured over the food list that includes Magnesium and first chose the foods that I didn’t hate. Now, I am trying foods that I never particularly cared for with different recipes to find a way that I may like it instead of completely dismissing something that is good for me.

First, I knew I liked Spinach. I began adding fresh spinach to the salad that my husband began making for me to get well. Then, I began doing the same with avocados. Next, I began eating tuna salad (albacore without mercury) with veggie chips instead of on bread. Now, I’ve completely cut out the chips. I tried an internet recipe passed around on Facebook on garbanzo beans.  I’m trying spinach smoothies. (and other green smoothies.) 6 months ago, I would have thought that green smoothies were crazy, however, I figure if I’m not feeling well with what I’m doing, try something new! (for any diet changes, I’ve found it easier for me to go slow and not to jump in, or I won’t stick to it.)

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Now, being extremely Magnesium deficient because of EDS and dealing with Chronic Pain and Fatigue and Insomnia beginning 2 1/2 years ago, I knew I had to do something drastic. I began searching for vitamin supplementation even before getting in to see Dr. Collins. Even after working with her on it, I have found these things to be true:

  1.  There are many types of Magnesium. The many different types work best for different issues and systems of the body.
  2.  Because every body is different, one Magnesium that works for me, may not work for you. Dr. Collins suggested that Chelated Magnesium was the best for those of us with EDS, however, my body did not absorb it… it simply did not improve my health and quickly left my body. There is only one that has worked for me to improve my health. I have found that the types that end in “ate” work best to absorb, and the “ide” endings just go right through (best for laxative affect.)
  3.  Magnesium Citrate is the fastest way to get it into your body. This is also the type that I’m able to give my children with EDS who cannot swallow pills.
  4.  You need other vitamins with your supplementation that help your body to absorb Magnesium: Calcium, B6 and Vitamin D3. This is easier to do with food intake rather than supplementation, but when you are extremely deficient, consider these vitamins, as well.
  5.  Calcium supplementation ratio should be Calcium 1.5-Magnesium 1 (Calcium 150-Magnesium 100 or Calcium 200-Magnesium 130.) For my child with IBS, we need a 2-1 ratio. For him, I add in chewable calcium to make up the difference when he takes his Magnesium drink.
  6. You can overdose on B6 causing neuropathy. My favorite supplement is vitamin B50 which has the FDA limit of B6, but also other B vitamins in it. I also take a B12 vitamin for energy that does not have a limit like B6 does.
  7.  Taking Magnesium in the morning is best. I had been trying to do 1500mg before bed and waking up not feeling so well still. Taking a bunch of salt before bed, before not eating for a large amount of time, can cause hypoglycemia. I do not have a problem with that, but lack of salts in my body acts the same way. I have always had to eat every couple of hours. I do not need to cause another problem. But having the right amount of Magnesium at the right times can stabilize insulin. The Magnesium that I currently take says to take 3 times a day, so I take it with food.
  8.  Taking Magnesium with Iron will cancel out both vitamins. I take Magnesium separate from my Vitamin C and multivitamin. (Dr. Collins suggests that a multivitamin is not necessary because the high vitamin ratio that is actually needed is so low in the multivitamin.)
  9.  Foods with Magnesium in them absorb best.
  10. Do not forget that salt and water work together. One is supposed to drink half their body weight in oz. of water. If you are taking a ton of salt with no water, you will dehydrate. If you are taking in a ton of water, but no salt, you will also dehydrate. (Sports drinks have too much sugar in them)
  11. Exercise, even just taking a walk, is extremely helpful in maintaining health.

These things have been helping my family and I to heal from Chronic Pain/Fatigue, Insomnia, Hyperactivity, Allergies, Joints that easily pop out of place, and Easy bruising/bleeding. When your body is well in other areas, you do not get sick as easy. Another thing I like to do to help to not feel dizzy (POTS) is to add Epsom salt to the bath water or plug the drain to do so while showering. Also Magnesium spray  or Magnesium cream onto my areas of muscle pain. It absorbs quickly into the part of my body that needs it. Carrying around Magnesium tablets or powder with me have also been a life-saver when I am out and have an episode of my blood-pressure dropping. I hope this has helped or will help you in your journey. Here are a couple of other videos that have inspired me.

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Dr. Terry Wahls talking about her journey with MS.